What i remember most...

 It Seems

The first thing I forget about someone

Is the sound of their voice.

I've always had a terrible memory. Call it a symptom of a life time of trauma, i guess. 

I may not remember her voice, but I remember the tears streaming down her face that day. 

I remember, a week or so later, how she walked away. 

I remember feeling so lost, and confused, and alone. 

And i remember feeling so broken, and used.

My memory often fails me. But the things I do remember, oh how I wish I could forget. The curve of her hips. The softness of her kiss.

I don't know what hurts more. Remembering the love. Or recalling the hurt. 

And when I find myself drowning in those memories, I remind myself. She walked away, when I needed her most.