Sri Lanka!! I was so excited to see elephants, and knew it wouldn't be long before we saw each other again, I wasn't too upset about leaving my man in India. But about a week in, and I'm missing him terribly.
Sri Lanka is beautiful, it really is like paradise. The weather is warm, but not humid. The traffic is much more relaxed than India, the people are friendlier, and it's cleaner.
Three days in, and I hadn't seen a single elephant!!! So we booked a safari through the wonderful tuktuk driver we'd met, and it was so much fun - we saw SO many elephants!!
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But, as is the way with mental illness, it can creep up on you. I'd been feeling so good the last few weeks, that when my mind started to spiral one night, I didn't really know what to do with myself.
I shouldn't have been surprised. I haven't slept well since arriving in Sri Lanka, often waking up several times through the night after having horrible nightmares.
The second evening of spiralling, I sunk pretty deeply. Like a cloud, it blew in and engulfed me.
But, nothing stays the same. Good, bad, happy or sad, things are constantly changing.
I had a zoom session with my counsellor, And we talked a lot about what I might be feeling incomplete about, and she suggested I write a letter to the person I feel like I need to talk to. I've ummed and ahhed about it since, but I'm yet to put on to paper. It'll happen, when I'm ready.
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