Thursday, 17 March 2022

Old Habits Die Hard

 I have been meaning to update this blog with a other travel chapter... but the last few days have been hectic. 


I have so much to look forward to. But tonight, after 5 days of travelling, and sleep disrupted by nightmares, the walls felt like they fell in on me. That familiar spiral of negative thoughts started again. The feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness, of being unlovable... I know it's not true. But it became such a default way of thinking,  for months.

I have so much to look forward to. I need to let go of the past. And be present.


 

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