Late nights, deep thoughts

I've made a lot of mistakes in my life. 

I've hurt people, and I've been hurt. 

I have trouble forgiving myself.

I blame myself, even when it wasn't my fault.

I apologise, even when I'm the one hurting. 

I'm trying to be a better version of me. I'm trying to forgive myself, and love myself, the way I love others. But it's not easy. 

I'm trying to allow myself to be loved, while standing tall in my worth, and creating boundaries. 

I'm trying to look towards a future, when I look back at a past full of so much pain.

I'm trying to be present, and not let the dark thoughts weigh me down. 

I'm trying.